My Autobiography to My Sir from another squad In-Charge.

I’m SC Edmund Ong, this year 21 years old, a Diploma holder of Electronic, Computing & Communication Engineering, specialize in Wireless on the final year. I’m an outgoing guy who likes to go out to enjoy the Sun and Wind. That also mean I like to exercise a lot and sweat out the fats in me! I play sports like Basketball, Cycling, Dodge ball, Swimming and other more. I like to hang out with friends to chill and catch up with one another. In my circle of friends, I’m well known for a funny guy who is like a clown cause I like to make others smile or laugh, it just feels good to see those. But this only apply to those people who I’m closer with, I’m usually a quiet and just observe the surrounding only when I just enter a new environment. So I’m that type who is slower with making friends but when get closer with them then I start to be more comfortable and behaving more like myself. I’m the eldest in my family beside my parents, therefore I hold a greater responsibility since when I young to take care of my siblings and set a better example for them but in academic side, I didn’t set quite a good one but I still dote and love them. I’m also a very optimistic person and have a positive thinking mindset guy. Overall, I’m just an average guy with average skills that has an average look. (:

Before I enlisted, my weight was nearly 80kg, and after being determined to loss weight, I am now 69kg!! It’s quite an achievement for me and I’m quite proud to be fitter and healthier now. After slimed down, I then started to be able pass my IPPT in HTA. Before that I always fail my 2.4 run, pull up and standing board jump, therefore I ended up in prep intake which are for those who need to train for another extra 2 more months than the fit intake. I didn’t regret being in prep intake because I will have more time to train myself to pass IPPT, although I still couldn’t get a Silver due to my SBJ, but from a Fail to a Pass is improvement for me already and I will try to improve on my SBJ to get that Silver! 

Even though I passed my IPPT and a Diploma holder, I still didn’t get my Cpl rank. Reason is because I failed my O level English, which is a sad thing. Seeing almost all my squad mates having a rank on their shoulders and mine is still a blank, is really a depressing thing but I didn't blame any one because is my fault, I didn’t put in enough effort at that time, that’s why I didn't get my Cpl rank.

And now after passing out and got into PCG, another turning point in life yet is part of my choice because I chose it when I’m being asked to choose which vocation I hope to get. I’m glad that I got what I want, because the trainings here is really different from HTA and maybe some other vocations. Although so far only went through ASP baton training and yet still experience others, but from what I see in the presentation slides, the training programs here seem to be fun and interesting. I can say is much more specializing compared to other vocations. I’m quite looking forward those trainings and hope to see and experience more about this vocation!

“Defeat is not the worst of failures. Not to have tried is the true failure.”

Big guy with a small Heart!

This week, one of my bunk mate kinda pissed off with most of us because we sort of teased him. The story goes like this, he kept asking another bunk mate who is a regular about sign on stuffs and said that is his friend who want to know which made us think that he is interested in signing on. Out of everyone but him is the impossible one who will consider signing on in our mind because he always say theater is his life, he will continue and pursuit his dream after NS phrase. Therefore, my bunk mate that he consulted, a regular, sort of disturbed him and keep saying "Sign on ah?" and most of us in bunk also teased him at the same time. At that point of time his face totally changed,from an ego face to an embarrassed face. From the moment he walked out of the bunk, he didn't talk to us any more and always go to the bunk beside us to play card and find entertainments.

A little bad mouth about him...

He always like to complain, he complains almost everything, as long as he feels that its wrong or doesn't benefit him, he will complain. He quite big in size, compare to Asian, he is build is more toward western countries, he is huge, thats make him look like a leader. He likes people to follow his thinking because he thinks that he is right all the time. He is easily bored therefore he needs to find entertainments almost all the time, to him, our bunk is boring to him because we only sleep, talk on phone, read book, work out, listen to mp3. He told this to the other bunk, yet he didn't know I will get tips off but I think he was prepared for us to know this because he said out to everyone in the other bunk. Lastly, he like to tease people. He teased almost everyone in the bunk yet he couldn't accept others teasing him. This is what we call "Big guy with a small heart!".

To him...

We spent almost 6 months living together, seeing each other 5 days in a week, eating 3 meals together, sleeping so near to each other every night on different beds. Just one time of tease, and yet you couldn't accept like how we do when you did the same. This is not fair toward us. We might be bored, but we need some individual time to spend time with our loved ones, replenish our energy by resting and working out to be on the same physical level as the rest. We couldn't be playing card with you all the time. Lastly, everyone has no problem with each other but only you have, you complaint. This mean that the problem don't lie on us, but you. You got to face the facts that we are your bunk mates, maybe not as interesting as you expected, but we are not bad either. We care and concern for you whenever you are sick or moody, you couldn't deny about this. We still take you as one of us.

"Never make someone a priority when all you are to them is an option."

Eleventh

HAPPY 11th MONTHSARY BABY! (:

Love is something you cannot control.

Friday night, I did 2 bad things which I have not being doing it for at least half a year and yet I picked it up back just as familiar as the past. The disciple I built up for past 6 months had gone into a waste in that moment. Well, sad to say I still suit that way, no matter how I look into it, I'm into that kind of package. The kind in TV that play the role of bad boy which these 2 things can't be without. Trying to repent for what I had did, hoping that's no more next time, i guess? :D

Saturday night, not a good night! Yes, AGAIN! Went to Mr. Oh's house to play Mahjong and I lost again! Year 2011, I have been losing money in all gamble sessions, I guess is not a good year for me to gamble. So I shall put an end to my gambling career in 2011, probably return on 2012? Shall see my luck for next year!

Recently, I'm surprised by one of my best friend, the way he changed in army, the way he express his love towards his girlfriend. He used to be cold and bad towards his girlfriend, those kind that always neglect his girlfriend and flirting around. But when I happened to view his girlfriend and his Facebook accounts, I'm surprised to see those sweet loving comments that he posted or replied in his girlfriend's Facebook wall or on his own wall which he doesn't do in the past. Maybe the cause of changes are because he is currently going through an Officer Course, therefore his mentally might change a bit or he has realize his age ain't young anymore, is time to think carefully for his future. When I saw his girlfriend posted an album of photo on Valentine Day, it did touches part of me, the name of album goes like "still not too old for valentine's!". On the actual day, they only have a short period to celebrate this special occasion because he need to go back to camp after a while. There's no beautiful flower or time for splendid dinner but yet they still look happy and contented, face with smile that filled with loves. This is how beautiful true love is, you no need to be rich or a perfect/flawless person to be able to feel it, all you need is just a true heart filled with loves for each other and you will be able to see the firework. I don't know how army had changed or affected him, but I'm glad to see the way he is now and good for him. (:

" No matter how many time you ask me how much I love you, the answer is just going to be the same, I love you. "

NS MAN!

Music : Perfect - Hedley
Mood : Sian cause booking in!


Hello blog! Since ages I talk to you! Suddenly feel like writing back on you so be happy about it! Another reason is to prepare myself for this year GCE 'O' English retake. Hope to improve my English as much as possible, so please guide me along the way! :D

Okay, let's see.. My life ever since i stopped my writing here.. Not too bad.. Maybe quite good.. Cause I got myself quite a good girlfriend or shall I say partner. (:

Life for me now is a part-time boyfriend and a full-time NS man! Most of the people will think that I'm lucky enough to get myself into Singapore Police force. Well, this is true in someway, but that's to them, not me! Comparing SPF to SAF, the training i heard from people who went through SAF's training is to train you for war-mode. While for SPF, the trainings are for maintaining Singapore's daily internal security. Is not about the course difference I'm trying to compare here. Both are totally different in the first place, so we cannot say which is good which is bad. Is the difference in the way they train enlistee that I want to compare.

I'm not trying to be racist or criticize anyone here, I just want to clear some doubts. In Police force, the ratio of M to C is 1:1. Comparing to the ratio of races in Singapore, this means Police recruits most of the M. While in Army force, the ratio of M to C is around 1:20! See the differences already? It is an obvious difference of the races in each force, I seriously don't understand why they want to gather most of the M in Police Force and not recruiting them equally in each forces. I believe that's one of the reasons why our M friends will feel that Singapore is being racist towards them, because they couldn't give an explanation to them for such arrangement.

Therefore, with the thought of that, in Police force, I feel that some of the M will tend to be more united. For example, always sitting together as a group, no matter in class or Mess. Speaking in their language even with the presence of other races. Forming teams of themselves when playing soccer. Organizing gathering that neglects other races. Supporting each other when one of them gives suggestion or order. These are just examples, it may not be true, but if you are a M and happen to read this, then you should know it better than me.

Being separated with different small groups in a squad, the unity will no longer be there, the fun will be lessen, the closeness will be distanced and the experience of brotherhood in Army can no longer be felt.

This is why I rather going through the tough training that Army Force provides but in return feeling the experience of brotherhood than in Police Force where we all put on fake smile just hoping to finish the training phrase and get the fcuk out of here!

This is how i feel being in Police force, I might be wrong, I'm just putting down my thoughts here, no other purpose or reason. Accept what I wrote, if not move on!

Okays, I shall put one more post about my NS life when I pass out! Of course before that I might be blogging too! So stay tune and see ya! :D

THE HERO!

Last stop

Music : Sorry - Buckcherry
Mood : sad

I'm gonna bid farewell to this blog. There's no reason for it, so don't ask me about it. I may return, but the chances are low. Good Bye. (:

Oh I have a lot to say was thinking of my time away




I missed you and things weren't the same






[Pre-chorus]


Cause everything inside it never comes out right


And when I see you cry it makes me want to die






[Chorus]


I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue


I'm sorry about all the things I said to you


And I know I can't take it back


I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,


and baby the way you make my world go round


And I just wanted to say I'm sorry






This time I think I'm to blame


It's harder to get through the days


You get older and blame turns to shame






[Pre chorus]






[Chorus]






Every single day I think about how we came all this way


the sleepless nights and the tears you've cried


its never to late to make it right


all right sorry






[Chorus]






I'm sorry baby


I'm sorry baby


yeah


I'm sorry

"The saddest thing in this world is saying goodbye to your love ones."