THE HERO!

Last stop

Music : Sorry - Buckcherry
Mood : sad

I'm gonna bid farewell to this blog. There's no reason for it, so don't ask me about it. I may return, but the chances are low. Good Bye. (:

Oh I have a lot to say was thinking of my time away




I missed you and things weren't the same






[Pre-chorus]


Cause everything inside it never comes out right


And when I see you cry it makes me want to die






[Chorus]


I'm sorry I'm bad I'm sorry you're blue


I'm sorry about all the things I said to you


And I know I can't take it back


I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds,


and baby the way you make my world go round


And I just wanted to say I'm sorry






This time I think I'm to blame


It's harder to get through the days


You get older and blame turns to shame






[Pre chorus]






[Chorus]






Every single day I think about how we came all this way


the sleepless nights and the tears you've cried


its never to late to make it right


all right sorry






[Chorus]






I'm sorry baby


I'm sorry baby


yeah


I'm sorry

"The saddest thing in this world is saying goodbye to your love ones."

The long road.

Music : No Boundaries - Adam Lambert
Mood : Depressed );

Sigh. Everyone around me is talking about uni, uni and still uni, especially my labmates. They are discussing whether wanna continue study engineering course or try out on business courses. Everyone is applying for local uni, except me sitting at one corner looking at this computer of mine in the lab, hoping to see my GPA add in 1.0 more point to make it 3.8. One of my labmate asked me today which course am I applying for and in which uni, I told him I didn't apply as my points are not enough for local uni, he was stunned and embarrassed as he think that he had just ask a wrong question. I think I should be the one having his feelings and not him.


Accidentally overheard a conversation between one of my labmate and a lecturer today. The lecturer was helping her to clear her mind of which courses to study is a better choice for her and with her GPA, what kind of courses she can enter. I really envy her being able to get in a local uni with high chances than me, being able to talk about what courses available in the local uni with friends and lecturers. I was depressed when I think about it, and asking myself why I didn't study hard enough in the first place.


When they were talking about private uni, I overheard the fees was around 10k +++ to nearly 20k per year. I was shocked by the amount when I heard it. I started to panic and went to ask friends about it. Some told me not that expensive like the lecturer said, some said it was around there. If need my parents to pay that kind of amount for me to study, I rather don't further my studies. I rather they invest in my younger brother than in me, I see better potential in him.


I need advices. Advices from peoples who have experiences. Of course, I need friend's piece of advice too. I came up with 2 options. First,enter the society and work, maybe the company will send employees for upgrading. Second, study part time degree so that I'm able to work and pay for the fees. The second option will be a tougher road to walk.


Enlistment is just around the corner. I need to prepare myself for it. Be it hell or heaven, I just have to accept it. Friends are asking me why I didn't get a girlfriend for so long, I always tell them is because of NS. I saw & heard a lot of bad ending relationship when guys are serving NS, therefore I'm quite afraid of it too. And I also don't wanna be selfish to let a girl waiting me for 2 years, is not an easy task. I doubt there is any girl that has such patience to wait for a guy to serve finish his NS.If there's such a girl that has such patience and is still single, please tell me, I'll like to know her. (: So, now you guys know the reason behind it, please stop reminding me that I'm single for quite some time. It hurt at time when I receive such question. ):


Thanks for those who read till here, guess you all really do seriously read my blog. Please enjoy this song, No Boundaries by Adam Lambert. (:

" Chance is to fight for it, and not waiting for it to happen."

Joke.

Music : Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
Mood : Tired!!! ROAR!

Argh! Tired is the word for this whole week! Everyday is a tired day! Saturday & Sunday, I'm being asked down to help out over my family business factory. Waking up early in the morning is a killer, it's being ages I need to wake up at 6 in the morning already. Driving along the TPE highway almost doze me off with the speed of only 80km/hr. I NEED MORE SPEED! Too bad, my dad is beside me like a TP, watching over my speedometer, but he didn't help me to put up my P Plate, how great hur. Alright, enough of complaining, let's backtrack what I had did this week.


Thursday, I skipped school and I went swimming, that's all. (:

Friday, as usual, never fail to meet up the usuals on the Friday Night, let's just call ourselves, " It's Friday " man. (: We went to watch 14 Blades, I find it not bad, quite a nice show, worth watching, but I forgot the movie plot. =x  

Saturday, met Mr. Oh to buy clothes for coming Chinese New Year. We both get ourselves a shoe from Pedro, and mine was sponsored by my aunt, although he was sponsored by his dad too, but he had to pay first and claim later. (: I love you Xiao Yi <3. Mr. Oh managed to get his Chu Yi clothes and I had bought all I need to. Dinner at Hong Kong Cafe @ Cinileisure, we were dead hungry and initially still wanna wait for Pilot Ng to have dinner together, but well, he PS-ED us, don't wanna talk about it already. We got "shot of the day" done by me.(:


It's SUNDAY, probably resting at home and wait for MONDAY BLUE. ):


"I'm probably just a substitute to you. When I'm in no use, I'm being chucked aside." Nice. I like. What a sentence. Sometime, I wonder am I dying soon, I always nose bleed, confirm is not due to heaty. After that headache came in, and I always get stomach flu at night if I'm outside. Guess my time left are not much. (:

I just need a shoulder to lean on, is that so hard? 

" Each step takes courage, without knowing where's the finishing point. "

The colours of my life.

Music : OK Man - 黄靖伦
Mood : Energetic

Sorry readers! I'm too busy this week that's why I haven't been blogging lately. I'm back! (:


Lets start with Sunday, went to have a haircut in the noon ( woot! love my new haircut. (: ) and went to buy paints with my sister to PAINT our rooms. Our room was initially with Orange colour but thanks to my dear lovely younger sister, it's now in raspberry love colour. Yes, it's a colour of Love, but the process of painting wasn't a lovely one. Need to paint the wall with white colour wall sealer ( oil based ) before painting the raspberry love colour, if not the colour couldn't paint over with expected results, so was a double jobs!!! Painting sound fun, but it's tiring!!! Whats more is I had to go school in the day and came back home and continue painting till midnight, felt like a Bangala! I did this for 3 days, I finished my painting on Tuesday. (: I slept in the living room on Monday and Tuesday, it's SCARY! It's due to the War-Like condition of my room, I had no space to sleep so I moved to sleep in the living room for two days.

My sister took it when I'm having haircut. She wait for me there.sweet. (:

BEFORE

 

PROCESS

AFTER

 

AFTER CLEANING UP

Wednesday, went to Sakae Sushi @ Rivervale Mall for Shushi Dinner Buffet, an advanced birthday celebration for Kumfai. The second oldest in our class, this year 22, faster get PeiFang as your girlfriend please. (: Dinner was more on catching up with each others, as half of us are having FYP, the other half is doing IAP now. We are complaining to each other of our FYP & IAP. 2 more weeks to end all our poly life. (:

After Dinner, we went to Orchid Country Club to play bowling.(: It used to be our favorite past time, whenever we meet out. Bowling was fun. (:

Happy moments always end fast. But these happy moments will always stay in my memories. Whenever I'm down, I know there are still something for me to remember and cheer me up. I'm fixing all the happiness up into a jigsaw puzzle, but I'm still lack of some pieces to complete it, and that's you. (:

"You don't need everything to be in love, all you need is the heart that link with another one."

Body's Glass Hour

Music : In Your Eyes - 杨丞琳&羅志祥
Mood : I had forgotten. (:

Is Sunday again! Time really don't wait for us, it had mind of it's own, won't stop for you just because you wanna enjoy a particular moment. Time is precious and uncontrollable.


Friday was a double celebrations. In the day, celebrated Selwyn's last day of FYP at Toa Payoh Lor 8, ate curry fish head recommended by Nicholas. Rate it with 3 stars and not really worth the money, it's quite expensive compare to others. Three lab mates left, the lab felt quite empty. The quietness make me feel like sleeping.


When the night fall, went to meet the usual to celebrate Pricilia's 20th Birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRIC! (: We decided on Fish Manhattan to dine in, the queue was super long and the waiting time was around 1 hour. After dinner, we didn't know where to go, the only suggestion was drinking! But due to some objections, we didn't go drink. So Prince Oh decided to show us his achievements of conquering the Mount Faber (some called it QIU MING SHAN!) We spent our night sitting at Henderson Wave Bridge and chit chat, mostly was SC telling us about NS and it reminded me that it's not far from me now. Gonna prepare myself to go in and be a MAN! Alright, shall let the photos do the talk. (:

 

  

Chinese New Year New Lobster Set Promotion, 1 for 1 !

Female toilet at mount faber. CLASS!

The Royal Treatment.

Trying out the new Binoculars. (:

The Backstreet Boys ( with girls )

Christmas is already over, birthday girl. (:

This photographer is good man. Good Take! (:

 

Not bad though not that good as previous one. (:

Saturday, went to meet my Mahjong Khakis, but Minami was not free, so there are only four of us that made up two pairs. We went to Marina Barrage to fly kites, took public transport there, it's been quite some time I take public transport already. As usual, there were always packed with teenagers and families, sights of happy moments everywhere. We failed to fly up our kites, the problem was lie with either the kites or ourselves. Seeing others kites flying up high in the sky making us envy them. Kites are like a relationship, release and pull back a bit when it's needed. If either ways are too much, it caused your kites to fly away or string to snap. Learn how to maintain. (:

In the night, went to Theodora's house for our Mahjong session, if we don't mahjong when we meet, we are not called Mahjong Khakis already. (: This time round, I won for the first time, even though not the biggest winner but still won quite alot. Thanks to the luck given by BY. (: I don't really felt good winning friend's money, looking at their face I totally understand how they felt, the feelings I always felt in the past. Look like my luck is turning better. I shall upload the photos in the this when it's upload by my friend. so stay tune. (:

The reflection.

 

I look like a Superstar! (:

 
 

  
 

I came back failing to fly the kite =x
 

The manual DSLR's Len (:
 

Goldfish is still better in water than air.
 

Smiles. (:
 

The Giant Snake Kite!

"Love is like a drug, it's addictive."

Cappuccino Loves

Music : 缺席 - 黄靖伦
Mood : unable to describe this feelings. (:

在一个下着雨的上午，我坐在一个靠着一片透明的窗户的咖啡屋，手里拿着一本萨市比亚的作书，桌上一杯卡布奇诺。雨水流下那窗，把户外的景物看起来有一点模糊，令人感觉有一点像在一个瀑布后的情景。读着一本能令人领悟爱情和人生的道理，再来一口浓浓的牛奶咖啡。这种没有办法形容的感觉，是我一直想尝试的，可是一直找不到那样的咖啡屋。


有人说，爱情就像一杯卡布奇诺，那么的甜美和浓厚，我想那个对我说的人因该是萧雅轩。因为她唱过那首歌名叫“卡布奇诺 ”。

"Love is just like a cup of cappuccino, the sweetness of the milk can overcome the bitter taste of the coffee, just like how loves change a person life, the feeling of blessing and loved."

Ghosts everywhere

Music : 21 Guns - Green Day
Mood : holding back.

Had been reading ghost stories online for the whole day, I can't move on with my project because the teacher who can help me didn't come today. I was quite scared out when I read some of those scary post, my imaginations ran wild and I started to scare myself out when I'm alone in the toilet.

Accompanied Theodora & Charmaine for breakfast today, I felt so young standing beside them. Both of them just like aunties, gossip and gossip. I can sense 'big sister' aura whenever I'm with them. =x

I don't like the 'hanging there' feelings. Changes differences are so big, got to get used to it. I'm trying my best.

I felt quite relieved after my supervisor came and see my progress today. I told him I don't have enough time to send my design for manufacturing, as it takes up to 3 weeks for the board to be done. My design still debugging so I couldn't finish this week and I'm left with 3 weeks. Even the board is ready on week 12, I don't have enough time to solder and test it. So he told me is okay, I just need to finish the design and present to him what he want. After hearding this, I totally can feel the stress & pressures lifted off from me. HAPPY! (((::: (P:

"I'm trying to protect you from getting hurt, but you didn't know I'll get hurt." 

Communications

Music : 最幸福的事 - 梁文音
Mood : Dreaming

I'm quite into twitter recently, I spammed my thoughts, vented my angers, said what I wanna tell you, described my feelings at some point of time, communicated with friends that usually don't talk in msn. Communications are virtue. I'm impressed by how those communication's tools can link peoples who don't usually talk back together. Examples like Facebook, Friendster, Twitter and maybe some others I yet to discover.


Today seem to be a ring ring day for me, I was surprised by the the amount of peoples called me today. Usually it always stay still and silent on the table, so each time the phone rang, I was shocked. Keep it up the good jobs peoples, we need to communicate. (:


Last night, my dad asked me about my further studies when he just reached home. I stunned for 3 seconds and still can't answer him back. At that 3 seconds, I really want to find a hole and hide myself in. A lot of answers flashed through my mind, but none of them were suitable for that situation. I need to be honest, I told myself in my heart. When I decided to say the truths, my dad seem to be able to see the answer on my face expressions and diverted the conversation to another direction. I'm glad that you understood me, but I'm really guilty that I didn't managed to reach your expectations on me. But can you give me another two years time to think and plan what I wanna do after my NS, whether is to continue my study career or get into the society and work, I hope you can support me. (:


Putting down everything just like the story of "The King's New Dress". I'll drop down all my armors and shield, so that I'm defenseless. I won't make myself hard to get close with, so get close with me. (:



I remember at somewhere,sometime,someone told me "I don't need love". (:

Superman-ed! (:

"Love need courage, do you have?"

I thought, but...

Music : Breathe - Taylor Swift Feat. Colbie Caillat
Mood : changing like the weather.

Read X's blog, thanks for the piece of advice for me. Read J's blog, curious to know what happened. Read B's blog, normal post. Read W's blog, I like the photo caption. Read S's blog, glad to know you enjoy yourself. Read H's blog, i think you don't suit curly hair too. Read's SS's blog, as always, still the same you. Waiting for C's blog to update.

Things don't revolve around me the way I want it. Thoughts are drifting away from how it should look like. Truths are starting to float up the surface slowly. Situations are getting harder to control. Difficulties don't seem to be able to solve it. What is real, what is fake, I already don't know how to differentiate it. I had forgotten how to love and the feeling of being loved.

Week 9 of FYP, 3 more weeks to go. The pressures and stress I'm facing now are really out of bound. I need miracle to happen.

"I lost the key to my heart, will you help me find it?"

I'm in love with the sun

Music : 老实讲 - 羅志祥
Mood : sleepy.

Yawn.. Just woke up from a lazy afternoon nap, but I'm still feeling sleepy. ): I was feeling tired today because yesterday I had a healthy activities with the usual five in the morning but an unhealthy activity at night. Went Pulau Ubin in the morning yesterday, weather was so good, sky was so clear till late afternoon the weather turned abit cloudy. Cycled the whole island, discover every single part of it, except the bike trail only half way, because it was really dangerous and tiring with the slopes. A few incident happened like one side of WH's bike peddle came off, SH almost get into an accident when going down slope, BY ride and bang onto plant, SC couldn't brake off in time and get himself into a no-cycling area. Every part of it was planted in my memories, laughters, smiles, worries, excitement.



Dinner was at at my house, hope you guys enjoy the foods cooked by my mum. (:


Night was a drinking session again. I can sense that the routine is coming back again. ):


Here are some photos captured at Pulau Ubin,

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I personally like this photo, its funny.

 

Hope you guys really enjoy yourself on the trip of this short getaway. (:

"I say, I walk, I see, I left."